Black History

I used to be someone really brave and participated in many competitions even when I was in the primary school.I had so much of confidence in myself although I do make mistakes at times. But all of it  disappeared when I participated in the public speaking competition when I was twelve. I did fine in the district level and made it to the state level without much effort. I was well prepared, but I'm not sure if I was lucky or not to get my menses for the first time the day before the competition.

So, I was really nervous standing on the stage!  That's something puberty did to me as I did not feel that way in the district level! =.= I was doing well int he prepared speech round until I reached the ending when My mind suddenly became blank and had forgotten some parts of the script. I looked at my teacher and she was trying really hard to smile and to motion to me that I was doing just fine. She  even hugged me after I was done with my speech and told me not to worry and do better in my impromptu. I was really determined to make my teacher proud and did well in the impromptu speech and got 4th placing int he competition. I can't question the result because the other speakers presented their speech perfectly fine and I was the only one that stuttered among the 15 participants. If I had done my prepared speech well, I could have gotten into top 3. But, it was too late already and I hate to regret. So, I was contended with the results and so were my parents and my teachers.

As for my language teacher (who is also my favourite) even congratulated me for getting my menseson  the following day.And guess what, it was the hot topic in teachers' lounge! These teachers keep nothing to themselves! 

Apart from that, I was actually glad that the teachers were not upset with me and instead felt happy for me. I really miss them right now! My secondary school isn't as awesome as my primary school. If there  is anything I would regret about, it will be me growing up too soon! But life has to go on and I have learnt to see the better sides of my life instead of regretting my past. 

But this will always remain as a black history in my life....